The Truth is......

.....Painful

....Surprising

....Motivating?

I recently had an epiphany.  
And that is that I have been deluding myself.....
 for much longer than I realized.

Lately, when someone would say to me "You look great.  You're doing a great job" I would respond with, "Well, I haven't been so good the last week or so."  
And in my mind, it really was only the last week or so.  

I truly believed what I was saying.

The truth is.....I've been saying that for a lot longer than I thought.  


 Like since March.

I use several apps on my iPhone to track my food, weight loss, etc.  I use an app called iSkinny for tracking my weight loss week to week.  I've been using this app for over a year now.  That's a year's worth of weight loss data - that I really never looked at closely until recently.  As a teacher, I get that data speaks volumes about a student's progress.  Well, I finally really looked at the data - and it speaks volumes about me and my progress these last few months.

Here I thought I was doing so well, but the truth is.......

I've been slowly, steadily climbing back up.  
See all the red arrows?  
Those are bad.  And there are way too many of them!

So, the weaker part of me wants to just quit.  
Give up.  
Throw in the towel.  
It was so much easier before March, 
but for some reason it got harder.  
And summer is making it monumentally more difficult.  
I'm home all day, with easy access to snacks.

However, I am going to fight off the weakness, and salvage my progress.  Honestly, I'm still down more than 20 pounds, which is awesome.  I need to nip this in the bud.  I am home all day, with easy access to healthy food, and a treadmill.  It's summer and it's a perfect time to go for a walk.  I'm not going to let this setback let me continue with the tailspin I am in.

So, today is the day I stop lying to myself.

I know what I have to do.....I've done it for almost a year.

I just needed to get that out there.  

To motivate myself, if nothing else.

June Update

I haven't made too much more progress since my last post. :(

I haven't given up though!

Now that school is out, I'm getting back on track with renewed vigor.

That's tough for me because I can go either way during the summer.  I struggle so much being home all day and having easy access to snacks.  In the summer, I also find myself wanting to just sit around in the backyard enjoying some cocktails......which usually leads to overeating for me.

I'm trying to stay strong though.

I went through some old clothes and pulled out a bunch of stuff that hasn't seen the light of day in a few years.  Actually got dressed up for my sister's graduation and actually fit into some clothes that haven't fit me for sometime......

It was a good feeling!

I am continuing to participate in the Alli Communispace and getting on the treadmill a few times per week.

My goal this summer it work on tightening up a bit.....just not so sure how to go about it.

More on that later........

How Are You Coming Along?

I know this is quite a random post, but sometimes life is random.

How have you been progressing with your diet program? Your exercise program?

Me? I'm doing well. I wasn't the last few weeks. Taking too many cheat days vs following my path.

Easter is right around the corner. I want to be on a solid track by then because I plan on stuffing myself with peeps. What? I know, I know I shouldn't. But I will only eat them on Easter Sunday.

Please tell me you're keeping on better track than the one I have been on.

Weight Loss Progress

When I got on the scale yesterday for weekly weigh in I had lost another 2.3 pounds

for a total of 25.6 so far!

I was getting a little cocky, so I decided to see if I could get into some size 14's since all my 16's are getting a little loose on me.....and I did it!

These are size 14!!!!

February 18, 2012 (193.4 lbs.)

January 2, 2012 (200.3 lbs)

Spring, 2011n (220+ lbs.)

I Did It!!!!!

I reached my mini goal today!I started off at 219 pounds in June and my mini goal was to get under 200.Today is the day I did it!!!!I got on the scale and it said.....198.5
I'm doing a happy dance today!

Let's Do It!

Alrighty then. (Jim Carey, Ace Ventura : Pet Detective)

It is a new year as we all know, and I think that I have lost the "easy" weight that was being held onto by my steroids. I came of the steroids almost a month ago and lost about 7-10lbs very quickly with out trying. Now is the hard part... loosing the extra weight that is not because of the medication. Now I have to loose the fat in my legs and belly and tone all the muscles. All I can think is "aww crap". The one thing I am lacking to do this is motivation which will hopefully come soon.

Here is the most recent picture I have taken. 

I hope to be able to go down a size or two before summer. While I need to loose a little weight my mind isnt really set on a number but the look of my body unclothed. Hopefully that will help with the motivation and stress. 

Good Luck Everyone!

Kassie's Workout Day 1

Okay so I barely just survived day 1 of my new self imposed workout program. 15 minutes doing stairs, which includes another 5 minutes before for warm up and 5 after for cool down. 25 minutes in all is a great start. By the end of this I should have the best looking ass on the planet!

My inspiration: Rob songs... Nothing like a little Rob music to workout by.
My goal: Go down 1 pants size by the Breaking Dawn DVD release party.

Day 1 down... If the weather cooperates I might get to rollerblade on Friday woohoo!

How are your workout regiments working? What are your inspirations? Goals?

PS: I'll update later with my before pic... for now I'm gonna hit the shower.

Update: My before pic